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My journal is Friend's Only. If you would like to be added just leave a comment and tell me how you found my journal and why you want to be on my friend's list. No one under 18 please unless you are on my friend's list now, or I seek you out.
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| Dancer |
[07 Aug 2006|07:32am] |
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For all of you who thought of me today...thank you. I auditioned today for a Modern dance company and...I MADE IT!! I am now a paid professional dancer!!! I start rehersals monday. I can not even describe how happy I am. Dance is such a huge part of my life and I am so passionate about it and I am just so happy that I can actually utilize it. I even get to choreograph and perform a hip hop piece in an upcoming performance. So...I am really happy. :)
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[05 Aug 2006|10:40am] |
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Think of me between 2pm and 5pm today!!
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| The Devil |
[07 Jul 2006|06:11am] |
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The Devil Wears Prada was fabulous..the book is proving to be even better. That is All.
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[28 Jun 2006|06:17am] |
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| You Let Me Down Again...but then again what's new? |
[09 Jun 2006|12:14am] |
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FUCK you!!! I hate what you have become and I hate what you never were. The only thing that makes me sad is that I wasted four years trying to find you. Fuck you. If I never see you again I will die happy. Where were you all that time?? Where were you when I turned 16? Where were you when I graduated? When I turned 18? I can answer that..yet again you were causing others pain. Fuck you and the lies you told..YOU BAILED ON ME..not the other way around. How can a parent not give a FUCK about their own child?? It baffles me. I'm sorry that I ever wanted to know you, I'm sorry that I ever cared. I expected so much more out of you..I expected you to at least be a decent person..you couldn't even come through with that. You never gave me anything but pain. Fuck you. You mean nothing to me...you are dead to me.
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| I need answers |
[05 Jun 2006|11:25pm] |
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So I get this letter in the mail today. Here is some history before I go on...I haven't heard from my "real" father in over 15 years. He bailed on me when I was in 2nd grade. I haven't heard from his wife in that long either. I have been looking for him for the past 4 years.
So today I get this letter from his wife(technically my step-mom, but I don't consider her my step-parent) saying that she has some saving bonds that my "father" had kept secret from me..blah..blah..blah. She said that she has always wondered about me and how I've been and apparently my "father" told her some really big lie about why he decided to bail on me for all those years.
I am calling her tomorrow and hopefully getting his info from her, so that I can call him I guess. I think the first thing out of my mouth would be "Where The Fuck Have You Been?!!?" I'm really nervous about calling her. I haven't talked to her since I was like 7.
It's really got me fucked up, you know? It's like, I have been waiting for this opportunity to contact him and to ask him everything that I want to know and now I am just incredibly angry with him and all I want to do is make him feel my pain. I want him to know what's it's like being 6 years old and waiting by a window all day for your dad to come and he never shows...I want him to know what it's like to wonder for 15 years about a father you don't even know. He needs to know what's it feels like to know that you have siblings you have never met or even seen a picture of. I want him to feel the pain of lies and broken promises. But I can't make him understand or feel anything and I think that's what makes me so angry.
So yeah, I've cried and laughed, gotten pissed and cried some more. And now I am just confused over the whole thing. And really scared. I don't want to be hurt by him again.
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[28 May 2006|03:17pm] |
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So yeah, I am really bad at keeping up with this thing..I am usually on MySpace. oops. haha.
I'm sure I have been deleted by a lot of people...I can understand that.
I hope all of you have been great!!
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[07 Feb 2006|09:56pm] |
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I got my taxes done today!! YAY!!! I was suprised, I figured with my unemployment and school that it would be pretty hard but it wasn't. Dene' and I looked at some digital cameras today, but we are still not sure on what brand we are going to get. I like the kodaks and she likes the sony brands. We will see. It's pretty exciting though. I can't wait to get it lol. School tomorrow..boo! lol..Well, not really boo but I hate being a girl right now and I just don't feel like school. Oh well, I have to suck it up b/c I have to go. Dene' and I went to Target with Gaby today and I got a really cool little NYC plate and a Statue Of Liberty candle holder..I think they are fabulous. I'm going to set them up so I have a constant reminder of why I am busting my ass in school, work, and dance. Well, I guess I'll go and don't forget to "Smack Dat Ass!!" LMAO
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| I should be doing homework... |
[29 Jan 2006|01:33pm] |
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| Who Should Paint You: Salvador Dali | 
You're a complex, intense creature who displays many layers.
There's no way a traditional portrait could ever capture you!
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| Your Inner Blood Type is Type O | 
You are outgoing, gregarious, and well loved.
And it's a good thing you're super charming...
Because you also tend to be a bit flaky!
Your confidence gets your far, and you always speak your mind.
You are most compatible with: O and AB
Famous Type O's: John Lennon and Elvis
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| You Are a Bright Star Soul | 
Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attention
In fact, you often feel a bit hurt when all eyes aren't on you
You need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivial
And it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheive
You're dramatic and a powerhouse of pure energy
You posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to define
A natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles.
Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally!
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul
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| Your Seduction Style: Au Natural | 
You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.
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| Pics |
[10 Jun 2005|02:46pm] |
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Ok..I have updated my Webshots with pics of me dancing with Society Red and the Show so go check them out!!
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| Picture Whore |
[27 May 2005|12:46am] |
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Hey Guys!! I added a WHOLE BUNCH of pictures to my Webshots Album so just click the link to check them out!!
I am sorry I haven't been very active. I have just been busy and stressed out...and all sorts of things. I will be replying to everyone soon!! <3
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[04 May 2005|08:52am] |
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Updated pics..go see pics of the most awesome band and dancers in the world!! haha
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| Society Red Rocks!!! |
[04 May 2005|07:37am] |
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Ok, I have been really sick on and off...talked to a friend of mine who has diabetes... A LOT of my symptoms are symptons of diabetes. So I get to go to the doctor and get tested for that. Not looking forward to it at all. Blah. Saturday my most favorite band in the world, Society Red, played their very first gig. I was so proud of them, they have all come a long way. My good friend Greg is the guitarist. They were so awesome!!! Gigi and I danced with them for some songs and it was really cool being on stage again. We are now the official Society Red dancers. Very exciting. I will keep everyone posted about future show times and things like that. They are extremley talented. I will have some pics up soon of the show. Ok, now that I am done whoring out my boys..lol..Well..I have been working and just hanging out. Getting a little depressed, people at work are asking me whats up and why I haven't been myself. But I just say that I am fine. It's nothing that I can really describe anyways. Well, I should probably go.
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[22 Mar 2005|10:14am] |
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New Album in my pictures!!
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| You Know You Want To... |
[12 Mar 2005|11:22pm] |
Would you...
1. Go out with me?
2. Give me your number?
3. Have sex with me?
4. Let me kiss you?
5. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
6. Let me take you out to dinner?
7. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
8. Take a shower with me?
9. Be my GF/BF?
10. Have a fling with me?
11. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
12. Buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
13. Take me home for the night?
14. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
15. Sing car karaoke with me?
16. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
17. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
18. Let me give you a piggyback ride?
19. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
AND...
1. Tell me something obvious about you.
2. Tell me something about you that many don't know.
3. What is your biggest fear?
4. Do you normally go the safe route or take the short cut?
5. Name one thing you want that you can't buy with money.
6. What is your most treasured possession?
7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do often?
8. Tell me something sexually about you that I don't know.
9. Tell me something sexually about you that everyone knows.
10. What is your favorite lie to tell?
11. Name something you've done once that you can't wait to do again.
12. Are you the jealous type?
13. What is the one person, place or thing you can't say no to?
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?
16. When was the last time you cried?
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?
19. Name something embarrassing you did while being drunk.
20. If you post this in your journal would you like me to answer it?
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[10 Mar 2005|12:04pm] |
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Updated a few pics in Me and Stuff
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